Saturday, June 23, 2012

Emotional

I'm feeling pretty bummed right now. It's just frustrating that I have soooo MANY friends but seriously, I don't think I should still be considering them as friends if they don't want me around them. I know I can be so darn sensitive at times but seriously, sometimes singlehood does get to me that I am single and forever alone! Why do you think I get out so much and try to entertain myself with all the events there are when there is? Don't be surprised to see me anywhere alone because let me remind you that YES I AM FOREVER ALONE!

I saw online that he has finally gotten his first child in his hands. I don't know how to react to that. Of course I still feel bummed to the betrayal but people say, if you love something, let it go. Was there even Love in the first place? Well, there's something only God knows I guess. I definitely hope he will change his ways and not be that monster he always was before he got married. People say marriage can change one's life. I sure do hope that he has changed for the better and not let me feel betrayed for nothing.

Here I am, lying on my bed alone, typing everything that can possibly be on my mind and feeling awful even though I have just laughed my ass off watching some comedian series.

Arghhhh. Just go to bed Susan Ho. Tomorrow will just be another day in KL.

*so thats why I love being back in Ipoh. I have real friends there. Sad case.